There were times when I was angry and there were times when I was numb. There were years when I wandered; kind of searching for something or maybe for someone. I spent some time with musicians; one of the last lemmings, a girl called new age val, a small town paranoid, half of an exploding knoll. And it was during this time, that I taught myself how to mix sound.
Layers of tracks that can be faded or bounced. Take upon take until the perfect combination of harmony and rhythm is achieved. I didn’t realize it then, but life lessons were at play among those switches and dials on that board. You could suppress something with a touch or you could gradually reach an ideal state by fine-tuning.
Years later I started to think that people were like switches and dials. At first, they were compartmentalized, you were a switch or you were a dial. As time went on though, I realized, people are more like the entire sound boards. We all have switches and dials. Some things are easy to switch on or off; you can take a different route to work, because of construction, or start each day with a big drink of water. Other things require more fine tuning; you integrate more diet and exercise into your life or open yourself up to giving and receiving love and all that it entails.
So now, I spend my time mixing frequencies and layers as I write the music of my life and I share it for everyone to hear.